This is one of the things I have learned for the past few
weeks.
It is your choice if you are going to make this day, your
day, a better one or not. It is your choice whether you are going to fulfil your
dreams on this day or just postpone it until you feel you have everything on
their perfect places. It is your choice whether you are going to school or not.
It is your choice if you’ll come late or not. It is your choice whether you are
going to wake up on this day or not. It all lies on your decisions; you have
your freewill. It is all your choice. Things happen the way they should be and
it is still, I can say, the consequence of your choices.
Talking about choices, you can only choose between two
options. Yes or no? Go or not? You cannot be at the middle. Ask yourself. Are
you happy? You only got two answers. Yes or no? You cannot be in between. It’s
just you’re happy or you’re not. That’s it.
We may be facing a lot of trials and challenges which we
think we cannot make, fears we think we cannot conquer, and losses we think we
cannot get over. But, do not give up. It’s a part of this life. (Just call it “spices of life”. :) ) Just always remember
that the sunset may come to an end and start the night, but the darkest night
comes right before the dawn where the sun will shine brightly once again.
I choose to be happy. I choose to claim that this is my day and
this is the day the Lord has made for me to fulfil my goals and my dreams so I’m
going to seize it and make the most out of it. This is my choice. I choose not
to mourn on the bad things that happened in the past because it’s all in the
past and I cannot change anything about it. I better get up, get off my back
and keep going. The things that happened yesterday are my experiences and I
will use it to deal with the future. It has surely taught me a lot.
This is my day. This is the day the Lord has made for me. I
am going to use it efficiently, making experiences out of it which can surely bring
lessons that I can learn from. I am going to seize this day! Carpe diem!
I have always longed for someone to care for me besides my
family. Someone who’ll text me at random times how’s my day. Someone who’ll
call me by my name in the most simple but sweetest way. Someone who’ll join me
through long walks. Someone who’ll stay late at night just to listen to my
stories. Someone who’ll not get tired of hearing my sentiments on a moody day.
Someone who’ll join me when I make fun of myself. Someone who’ll make me smile
through my toughest days. Someone who’ll insist to bring my bag. Someone who’ll
be writing my name proudly on his notes. Someone who’ll drink coffee with me on
a rainy day. Someone who’ll talk to me about the latest book I’ve read. Someone
who’ll encourage me to write more. Someone who’ll tell me I’m not the kindest
person but still manages to handle me at my worst. Someone who’ll take silly
pictures of us. Someone who’ll join me on trips and adventures we will make
together. Someone who’ll build a dream with me. Someone who’ll build a home
plan for us. Someone who’ll think about our future. Someone who’ll accept my
family as they are not perfect. Someone who’ll accept me despite of all my
imperfections.
Many people would criticize me that I demand a lot. Well,
yes, I demand. But these demands are common to a girl who grew up watching Walt
Disney movies. When I was young, I thought that having a man is just as easy as
Cinderella wishing to her fairy godmother, as easy as Rapunzel being rescued by
her prince charming, and as easy as Snow White and Princess Aurora being awaken
by true love’s kiss. Now that I’m old enough not to believe these fairy tales,
I would like to sue Walt Disney for instilling in my mind that the right man
for me can be given in just a magic wand’s swish and that there is the
existence of a knight in shining armor. In real life, it’s not like the movies.
Reality is not as good as you dream it to be.
I have always listened to songs that perfectly describe the
feeling of being loved and being cherished by a man of my dreams. I have always
listened to the calming and soothing melodies of these songs that I would not
want to hear another anymore. But these songs, just like the movies, do not
happen in reality. No sweetest song is sung or will be sung, only the sweeter
song.
The sweeter song can only be heard from the heart of a man
who truly loves. The sweeter song that has always been the source of life of a
man. The sweeter song which has made everything stop.
I have not yet found my sweeter song. But I am willing to
wait for him. I know he’s just around the corner, practicing the songs he’ll be
singing before me whether his heart is in tune or not. And when that time
comes, I’ll be more than willing to sing a song for him no matter how
out-of-tune it may turn out because I know and I believe that only true love
formed with the love of God will be harmoniously sung by two hearts beating as
one. That is the time I’ll hear my sweeter song.
To the no one who'll be singing the sweeter song with me,
Finally
by Fergie
Ever since I was a baby girl I had a dream
Cinderella theme
Crazy as it seems
Always knew that deep inside that there would come that day
But I would have to wait
Make so many mistakes
I couldn't comprehend
As I watched it unfold
This classic story told I left it in the cold
Walking through an open door that led me back to you
Each one unlocking more of the truth
I finally stopped tripping on my youth
I finally got lost inside of you
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul
Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally
I remember the beginning you already knew
I acted like a fool
Just trying to be cool
Fronting like it didn't matter
I just ran away
And on another phase
Was lost in my own space
Found what its like to hurt selfishly
Scared to give of me
Afraid to just believe
I was in a jealous, insecure, pathetic place
Stumbled through the mess that I have made
Finally got out of my own way
I've Finally started living for today
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul
Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have a our differences
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Gave my love to him Finally
Finally, Finally
Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something beautiful is happening, happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally
Ohhhhhhh, Finally, Finally, finally...
"The 'sweeter song' is more of a gift than a goal. It's not something we earn, it is something we receive as we allow the Great Author of romance to masterfully shape us into a gentle and sensitive lover..." - Eric & Leslie Ludy, When God Writes Your Love Story
September 29, 2012. A rainy day but it was a great
experience for me and my friends. We went to Laurel, Batangas to visit the town
fiesta and make our projects. The original plan was to finalize the concept for
our exhibit in Philosophy of Education but the plan turned out to be an
adventure through Malagaslas Falls and another falls which is not yet known to
people.
It all started out at 11:00 AM. We rode a truck that
delivers fresh fish in some parts of Cavite and Manila. It is owned by my
classmate’s family. The ride took 15 minutes from the town of Laurel. The truck
ride was such an experience for all of us especially for me because it has been
a very long time since I last rode one.
Truck ride
The 15-minute ride did not bring us straight to our
destination. We have to walk along a muddy terrain and cross rivers just to get
to Malagaslas Falls. We even had stop-overs to buy some snacks and take
pictures, so the supposed-to-be 40-minute walk lasted for more than an hour.
First stop is the Malagaslas Falls. It is located at the
heart of San Gabriel, Laurel, Batangas. The falls was a small one but the water
is so clear and freezing cold. This is my first time to see natural falls but I
can say that it belongs to one of the most beautiful miniature natural falls. The
water rushes down from a 6-7 meters high pile of rocks. The water is so clear
that you would want to just dive onto the water but you cannot because the
catch-basin is too shallow for one to dive. Cherishing the beauty of nature and
the coldness of water, we took a lot of pictures here. Unfortunately, some of
us were not prepared to wet themselves on the falls but we all did because of
the inviting splash and coldness of the clear water.
After the Malagaslas Falls, we planned to visit the
Simbahang Bato which is also an attraction in Laurel. But we didn’t find our
way there; instead, we found a huge falls which we do not know the name. Before
we got inside the hidden falls, we need to pass through a waist-deep river and
cross over a huge rock which serves as the gate to the falls. When we passed
the gate (that’s how I call it), it was PARADISE. The rocks are so beautiful
and are placed almost perfectly alongside of the rock walls. The falls is on one
side. It is like a cave but the difference is just that this cave has no roof.
The falls was 10-15 meters high. The upper falls was, I
guess, 8 meters high splits into two smaller falls. The splash of the water from
the top falls gives drizzles of water that wets the sand and rock inside. Since
it had just rained when we got to the unnamed falls, the water was brownish but
we still enjoyed there. We enjoyed the beauty of the scenery surrounding the
hidden unnamed falls. It was surrounded by a huge rock formation which is
covered by moss and topped with trees forming a half circle. The green and
mossy surroundings gave a cool and soothing ambience, perfect for relaxing one’s
mind.
We need to say goodbye to the falls. It’s almost 3:00 PM and
we have not yet eaten lunch. We have decided to go back to our classmate’s home, but
this time, we had to walk our way to the town of Laurel because the truck
cannot fetch us. We walked across rivers and the muddy terrain, passing the
Malagslas Falls and through other two barangays. We were home by 4:00 PM.
My favorite shot. :)
It was such an experience. Adventure-packed. Worth-remembering.
Worth-repeating. I will definitely go back.
“believe that this way of living, this focus on the present, the
daily, the tangible, this intense concentration not on the news
headlines but on the flowers growing in your own garden, the children
growing in your own home, this way of living has the potential to open
up the heavens, to yield a glittering handful of diamonds where a
second ago there was coal. This way of living and noticing and building
and crafting can crack through the movie sets and soundtracks that
keep us waiting for our own life stories to begin, and set us free to
observe the lives we have been creating all along without ever
realizing it.
"I don’t want to wait anymore. I choose to believe that there is
nothing more sacred or profound than this day. I choose to believe that
there may be a thousand big moments embedded in this day, waiting to
be discovered like tiny shards of gold. The big moments are the daily,
tiny moments of courage and forgiveness and hope that we grab on to and
extend to one another. That’s the drama of life, swirling all around
us, and generally I don’t even see it, because I’m too busy waiting to
become whatever it is I think I am about to become. The big moments are
in every hour, every conversation, every meal, every meeting.
"The Heisman Trophy winner knows this. He knows that his big moment
was not when they gave him the trophy. It was the thousand times he
went to practice instead of going back to bed. It was the miles run on
rainy days, the healthy meals when a burger sounded like heaven. That
big moment represented and rested on a foundation of moments that had
come before it.
"I believe that if we cultivate a true attention, a deep ability to
see what has been there all along, we will find worlds within us and
between us, dreams and stories and memories spilling over. The nuances
and shades and secrets and intimations of love and friendship and
marriage an parenting are action-packed and multicolored, if you know
where to look.
"Today is your big moment. Moments, really. The life you’ve been
waiting for is happening all around you. The scene unfolding right
outside your window is worth more than the most beautiful painting, and
the crackers and peanut butter that you’re having for lunch on the
coffee table are as profound, in their own way, as the Last Supper.
This is it. This is life in all its glory, swirling and unfolding
around us, disguised as pedantic, pedestrian non-events. But pull of
the mask and you will find your life, waiting to be made, chosen,
woven, crafted.
"Your life, right now, today, is exploding with energy and power and
detail and dimension, better than the best movie you have ever seen.
You and your family and your friends and your house and your dinner
table and your garage have all the makings of a life of epic
proportions, a story for the ages. Because they all are. Every life is.
"You have stories worth telling, memories worth remembering, dreams
worth working toward, a body worth feeding, a soul worth tending, and
beyond that, the God of the universe dwells within you, the true
culmination of super and natural.
"You are more than dust and bones.
"You are spirit and power and image of God.
"And you have been given Today.”
― Shauna Niequist, Cold Tangerines: Celebrating the Extraordinary Nature of Everyday Life
This quote has just waken me up that my Big Moment happens today.
Everytime I ponder on things that I want to have, I lose the moment life
is offering me -- the experiences, the new things, the mementos that I
should be enjoying. For the past few months, I always tell my mother
that I already wanted to graduate and get a job. I feel like everyday is
consist of not 24 hours but 48 hours because too many things are
happening yet I don't get the chance to cherish it andd indulge myself
in it because I am waiting for my big moment. I have always wanted to be
the adventurer, going to different places just to experience new
things. I have always wanted to live the "life" I want to have. But now,
I guess I'm wasting the life I really have waiting for the life I,
maybe, will never have.
Photo from Google
But for now, I'll enjoy my life because my big moment happens today. :)
