Waiting for my Sweeter Song

I have always longed for someone to care for me besides my family. Someone who’ll text me at random times how’s my day. Someone who’ll call me by my name in the most simple but sweetest way. Someone who’ll join me through long walks. Someone who’ll stay late at night just to listen to my stories. Someone who’ll not get tired of hearing my sentiments on a moody day. Someone who’ll join me when I make fun of myself. Someone who’ll make me smile through my toughest days. Someone who’ll insist to bring my bag. Someone who’ll be writing my name proudly on his notes. Someone who’ll drink coffee with me on a rainy day. Someone who’ll talk to me about the latest book I’ve read. Someone who’ll encourage me to write more. Someone who’ll tell me I’m not the kindest person but still manages to handle me at my worst. Someone who’ll take silly pictures of us. Someone who’ll join me on trips and adventures we will make together. Someone who’ll build a dream with me. Someone who’ll build a home plan for us. Someone who’ll think about our future. Someone who’ll accept my family as they are not perfect. Someone who’ll accept me despite of all my imperfections.

Many people would criticize me that I demand a lot. Well, yes, I demand. But these demands are common to a girl who grew up watching Walt Disney movies. When I was young, I thought that having a man is just as easy as Cinderella wishing to her fairy godmother, as easy as Rapunzel being rescued by her prince charming, and as easy as Snow White and Princess Aurora being awaken by true love’s kiss. Now that I’m old enough not to believe these fairy tales, I would like to sue Walt Disney for instilling in my mind that the right man for me can be given in just a magic wand’s swish and that there is the existence of a knight in shining armor. In real life, it’s not like the movies. Reality is not as good as you dream it to be.

I have always listened to songs that perfectly describe the feeling of being loved and being cherished by a man of my dreams. I have always listened to the calming and soothing melodies of these songs that I would not want to hear another anymore. But these songs, just like the movies, do not happen in reality. No sweetest song is sung or will be sung, only the sweeter song.

The sweeter song can only be heard from the heart of a man who truly loves. The sweeter song that has always been the source of life of a man. The sweeter song which has made everything stop.

I have not yet found my sweeter song. But I am willing to wait for him. I know he’s just around the corner, practicing the songs he’ll be singing before me whether his heart is in tune or not. And when that time comes, I’ll be more than willing to sing a song for him no matter how out-of-tune it may turn out because I know and I believe that only true love formed with the love of God will be harmoniously sung by two hearts beating as one. That is the time I’ll hear my sweeter song.

To the no one who'll be singing the sweeter song with me,

 Finally

by Fergie

Ever since I was a baby girl I had a dream
Cinderella theme
Crazy as it seems
Always knew that deep inside that there would come that day
But I would have to wait
Make so many mistakes
I couldn't comprehend
As I watched it unfold
This classic story told I left it in the cold
Walking through an open door that led me back to you
Each one unlocking more of the truth

I finally stopped tripping on my youth
I finally got lost inside of you
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul

Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally

I remember the beginning you already knew
I acted like a fool
Just trying to be cool
Fronting like it didn't matter
I just ran away
And on another phase
Was lost in my own space
Found what its like to hurt selfishly
Scared to give of me
Afraid to just believe
I was in a jealous, insecure, pathetic place
Stumbled through the mess that I have made

Finally got out of my own way
I've Finally started living for today
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul

Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have a our differences
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Gave my love to him Finally

Finally, Finally

Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something beautiful is happening, happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally

Ohhhhhhh, Finally, Finally, finally...

"The 'sweeter song' is more of a gift than a goal. It's not something we earn, it is something we receive as we allow the Great Author of romance to masterfully shape us into a gentle and sensitive lover..." - Eric & Leslie Ludy, When God Writes Your Love Story

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